Per request from one of my friends I will actually write a post about me and not about my darling children (love you Katherine). You might want to be careful what you ask for though.
Several thoughts have been running around my head the last couple of days.
Pajama days and unannounced visitors
So why is it when I have one of those days... (You know the kind I am talking about. The ones where everybody stays in their pajamas all day, there is laundry piled and folded all over the front room, I haven't looked in a mirror and for good reason, the kids have snotty faces) Why is it that on these day unexpected company arrives?
Now I will be the first to tell people I visit that I do not care at all what condition they or their house is in and I really don't. But why is it that I care about what my house looks like when people visit?
Sadly I have pajama days more often then I would like to admit. Now that the kids are getting older there seems to be less of them. But why can I not just accept that I have good days and bad days and hopefully people can understand that.
SO I AM A NERD
Some people have really interesting and amazing hobbies like sky diving, painting, music, hiking...you know what I am talking about.
No, not I. I have really gotten into food storage and emergency preparedness lately. I am sure that part of it stems from now having a family that I have the responsibility to protect and care for. But I have really felt a sense of urgency for at least a year now to get our family more prepared.
I have actually really enjoyed learning more about food storage. Our ward owns a canning machine and so I was able to can about a three months supply of basic food. I am gearing up to finish our years supply in the next couple of weeks. It just feels good to know that if for any reason (and you never know these days) I will be able to put food on our table.
Living vs Existing
So do you ever have those days where you feel like you are just reacting as opposed to acting. For example, my previous comment about pajama days. I feel like I am reacting too much.
One of the areas I would like to improve upon is being more organized and pro active. I have devised a cleaning schedule. If I stay on track I only do a little bit everyday instead of taking a long time just putting out fires before company arrives.
I would also like to have a more organized and educational bonding time with my children ( sorry Katherine you knew they would pop up sooner or later). I realize that some of the most special moments are the ones unplanned. I just feel that I have a responsibility as their mother to be teaching them more and learning how to play with them. It may sound odd that I actually have to put effort into playing but I never have been very good at it. When I was little I would play grown up. Not much of an imagination here. It is funny I don't ever remember playing grown up being so tedious.
I am realizing that just about all educational and entertaining activities create a lot of work for mom. If anybody knows of any activities that do not create a lot of extra work please let me know. Television does not count.
Motivating Change
I would really like to be one of those people who once they recognize a fault in themselves they just change it. No wailing or gnashing of teeth as they choose to do what is right and not what they really want to do. James is this way. No wonder I love and admire him so.
Boy that "natural man" sure has a strong hold on me. I really fight change. Oh why is it so hard to just give in a do what I need to. Then I wouldn't feel guilty all of the time. I need to go to bed earlier so I can get up earlier and exercise and try to get some spirituality in my life. I need to change eating habits so I can resolve and avoid medical problems. You would think ones health would be motivating force alone. Oh no, not for me. Urgh..I am just getting myself frustrated. You get my gist. Any suggestions are welcome.
